May 11th, One Year Later
May 11th is a day that always will have lots of memories attached to it. It has been one year since our friend Henry passed away. And this year Mother’s Day is also May11th. One part of me is glad the forecasters are calling for cloudy and dreary weather, while the other part of me knows that I am stronger, wiser, and more resilient than I was a year ago. If I were able to give up the sad feelings today, I would then also have to give up all the love and smiles that proceeded the sadness. I would never trade away the former to escape the latter. To miss someone means they had to be special in the first place. That is not only life, but the only way to live life completely.
I am quite certain that the tributes we make to those who go before us are not supposed to be stained with tears. That in no way means that there are not sad times with crying, but instead means that we best honor those now departed in the way we live our lives based on how they impacted us. For the past year I have often asked how one says ‘thank you’ to ones now gone. The answer has come slowly, but surely.
Henry used to say to James and me that even in the lean times we never forgot friends on their birthdays or holidays. Even when the cash would have been nice it was not uncommon for James to give a language lesson for free, and to even throw in a quick lunch for a lonely old student. Our home was always a place that another plate could be set, and another face welcomed at the table. That was also very much how Henry had lived. His drawer for chocolates and cookies was never bare, and his teapot was always ready for a neighbor to drop in.
In the past months it has become clear to me that saying ‘thanks’ is best done by continuing to live as good friends to those in our lives. Often I have found that I end letters or emails with the words ‘the teapot is always on’ and invite folks over to our home. It is just a natural reaction as it reflects how we live, and who we are, but it also is a real way we honor Henry.
In addition to the memories of Henry on May 11th, is the fact that it is also Mother’s Day.
My mom loved flowers, and so in past years this weekend would be the time that I tried to find the special blooms and colors that would be added to her gardens. She would get flowers from all the kids (and some grandkids) and they would be lined up in the backyard on Mother’s Day. At some point that afternoon my dad would pull the hose to them and give them all a drink. In a few days my mom would place all of them in the spots where they would get just the right amount of sun and attention. As the summer would give way to fall she would comment to visitors that this one came from such and such, and that one was from such and such. They were more than flowers; they each contained a memory for her.
This year I will still buy pretty flowers, but make a pot and give it to an unsuspecting person who will enjoy them. Mom would want flowers to brighten a yard somewhere.
Over the past months James has asked me how we did not ‘go crackers’ with all that happened last year. Hanging together, and not forgetting that we are never given more than we can handle is part of the answer. Never forgetting the faith and values that others saw in us is the other part.
Thanks Mom. Thanks Henry.
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